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I wish I was creative.

I have so many ideas in my head. Grand pictures with beautiful scenery, website layouts that are perfect in every way, songs with lyrics that are actually relevant to my life, and perhaps even videos that people favourite thousands of times because they’re just that awesome. Oh yeah.
The problem with this is:

  • Art: I can’t even hold a pencil properly, let alone draw a masterpiece. I wasn’t blessed with the ability to see shadows and light, and could never shade appropriately in art lessons, making my art teachers bang their heads against the wall in frustration.
  • Websites: I could probably make the website layout of my dreams if I was prodded really hard, but there’s that laziness thing. It creeps up on me on the rare occasions I’m actually feeling quite motivated, and makes me give up before I can get into that “OMG! I NEED TO FINISH!” mode, which usually only happens around an hour before I have a project deadline. Things I do for fun don’t have deadlines, therefore making me drop them like they’re hot whenever I start to get a little bit tired.
    I know I have major issues when it comes to completing things – most of my posts on this website seem to be rants about how I’m not getting anything done. Meh.
  • Music: Song lyrics come to me easily (much like ironic poetry does), but my one attempt at a musical career was taking a Grade 1 violin exam many years ago (I passed, but never bothered to practice). I suck at theory; it takes me ages to read notes, and even then I’m not thinking in proper terms. For example:
    Me: “That’s where I’d put 3 fingers on the A string! Oh yeah, it’s D!”
    Other musicians: *facepalm*
    My singing voice is also of dubious quality, so I’m not even going to attempt that. I’ve watched the X Factor and American Idol. I’ve covered my ears and cringed for the contestants. What may sound good in my head doesn’t neccessarily sound good in anyone else’s.
  • Videos: I have all the right equipment to make a kickass video, but I’m a n00b at editing, and too shy to rope other people into making them with me when I’m not sure how they’re going to turn out in the end.

I know people have different talents. I’m happy with the ones I seem to have been given – sarcasm and the ability to call people out on their grammar and spelling mistakes. But when I have so many weird ideas swirling around in my head that can never come into fruition, I sometimes wish that my skills extended to the media I consume obsessively on a daily basis.